29,29,2009

yesterday i celebrated my 29th birthday. 29th december 2009. seems like a good combo. 29 years old on the 29th dec of the year 2009. talk about getting it right.

at this age, i'd prob should not be worrying about what i'm going to do with my life as it should have fall into place. it seems so but a few days of solidarity and silence have put a lot of things into perspective; mainly the questions of existence, purpose, and the theory to everything.

it's an interesting fact that we have tried to pursue God to the far reach of the universe; our minds have taken us millions of light years into the next galaxy, Andromeda but the very feet that touches the earth soil, modern technology can only takes us 8 miles from the possible hundred of thousands of miles to the center of the earth.

it comes back to our very nature; we like to reach for the sky and yet we have forgotten where we started from.

there's so much that we know about the outer space (or so the western NASA tells us as to justify the billions spent which brings me to another question; why haven't we land on the moon again and the fact that Nasa had lost the moon landing tape?) but we have yet to fully understand the very nature of mantel and crust and how gravity works.

perhaps if we do so, the theory to everything will collapse and the work of aristotle, copernicus, kepler and galileo will be crushed and so will the cosmology study that have long been touted as the greatest study of all and all will be lost together with general relativity, big bang, strings theory and stephen hawking.

i have asked from God to give me the knowledge of this world and beyond. that would be my greatest present that can be given as i have taken back this interest to study existence back from my fourth grade year.

quantum mechanics explained that the universe is no fabric of space nor it expands entirely; it is super complex with infinite variables that makes specific things for different beings.

hmmm... i am beginning to doubt its existence at all.

characters of life.

in a play, storyline presents itself as the central element in a drama; same goes with a football game where the gameplan and strategy is the core factor in winning.

we have made to believe romantically that its all about stories in a drama; that football should be played beatifully as a cohesive team.

i have come to realize that no matter how strong a story can be, and as strategically played football game as a team that can be played, characters and players shaped the kind of perception on the outside audience and inside the pitch.

bicara cinta and inai malam pengantin are very strong dramas; very strong on the storylines but the weakness is in the development of character; from point A to point B, from eps 1 to eps 26. the character never evolves; barely if there any.

same goes with arsenal; hugely talented squad with beatifully played game but there's no players that shape the mentality inside the pitch.

characters and players is central; to drama and arsenal.

imagine the workplace full with robot-like-staffs; cohesive, efficient, but stagnant. an organization must be a thinking-based one and though the core values shaped the vision and mission statement, its the character of players inside that makes it breaks it.